Tuesday, June 11, 2013

Not Dead, Just Transient

In the grand tradition of summer, I haven't been in my apartment in the Big Apple for three consecutive weekends. Very little of my time away has been spent running (fun fact: I went to Cape Cod last weekend and packed a sports bra and shorts, but no running sneakers. Oops?), but lots has been spent drinking beers.




Mmmm, Cascade hops.

Here are a few updates:

On running: I'm up to about 5 miles at a time, about 3 times a week. It still feels horrible. Jesus why would anyone take up running? It's so hard! This week I'll aim for 4 days of running, for a total of about 20 miles. Not quite the 36 miles called for in this, my first week of fall marathon training, but I'm trying to look at the big picture. The picture of me toeing a starting line neither burnt out nor broken footed. Speaking of which...

On my foot: How it is that oral contraception, from which I don't benefit nearly as much as I'd like (hubba, hubba, and also ugh, sorry Dad...), is free, but two rounds of x rays (which were demanded by my doctor and revealed nothing) and a surgical boot cost me more than $500 out of pocket? I don't claim to be insurance savvy, but what the actual fuck is it for if not covering my necessary medical expenses? Is this Teen Mom's fault? It's Teen Mom's fault.

On beer: I spent last weekend in Portland, Oregon hiking and hanging out and generally enjoying the great outdoors with my sister and brother-in-law. We drank many delicious beers, including Oakshire Brewing's Line Dry Rye, which I really, really love. Try to get your hands on it, and then give it to me. We also popped into a little brew pub in Hood River after a hike, where I drank their Big Horse Browncoates brown ale, which was incredible. Equally balanced piney hops and smooth, caramel malts. Plus the 7% ABV made for an excellent post-hike car nap (I was not the designated driver). I can't find it online, but if you're ever in Hood River, Oregon, go to Big Horse and get it.


Wednesday, May 22, 2013

Welcome Back, Walsh

47 days ago, I ran 39.3 miles.  Today, I ran 4.  Gotta (re)start somewhere, I guess.

Today's run was an interesting experience for a number of reasons.  First, since I've been "walking" for "exercise," I've been carrying my iPhone and listening to tunes a lot, which I am staunchly opposed to as a runner.  So when I left my apartment this morning carrying just my keys, I felt as though I had forgotten something critical, like shorts.  Which I might as well have, since I celebrated my return by donning my shortest short shorts.

Second, my Garmin has not been used since March 23rd, since I didn't bother bringing it to Ireland for a race that would take longer than the Garmin battery can last.  When I finally plugged it in to charge, it thought it was 3:21pm on April 30th.  Luckily that seemed to resolved itself as soon as it connected with the satellites, but since it was so out of practice at doing that, it took more than a mile, and wasn't the most accurate it's ever been...


Believe it or not, I did not actually fly to the Park and start my run there.
Nor did I run up and down Park for two blocks on my way home.
Third, while I was pleasantly surprised that I actually could still run at respectable paces, my endurance is absolutely shot.  4 miles might as well have been 40.  In fact, I came home and subsequently felt so barfy, I was late to work.  But at least my foot feels fine.

I know that the come back is a critical phase, post-stress fracture, and I want to be diligent about not re-injuring myself by doing too much, too soon.  Unfortunately, I have no idea how to appropriately do this.  I didn't think to ask the doctor at the time, and he didn't volunteer that information.  Pfitzinger has some information I've found helpful, including tips such as "When you can walk briskly for an hour without pain, you should be able to try a small dose of running," which means I was actually doing something right without even knowing it!  

That said, Pfitz also has complicated tables suggesting 5 min of running followed by 5 minutes of walking followed by 7 minutes of running, followed by 3 minutes of walking, ad nuaseum.  Let's be real: I'm just not going to do that.  

But what I will do is: run no more often than every other day; continue to cross train; and build miles slooooooooly..  I was averaging 15-20 mpw of walking, but I'm looking at 10-15 running miles each of the next two weeks, and using the 10% rule through June, until I'm holding down 30+mpw.   Which will already put me about a month behind for Fall training.  How inspiring...

Based on that, my next few days will theoretically look like this:

Wed: Run 4 miles.  Check!
Thurs: SoulCycle, because I already registered for it
Fri: Business trip, excellent excuse to save space and not pack sneakers, holler!
Sat: Run 4 miles to combat inevitable Memorial Day Weekend hangover
Sun: Lie out in bikini, SPF 1,000,000
Mon: Go for a walk, try to remember what it is we're memorializing
Tue: Run 5 miles, weep over return to office after five days out
Wed: SoulCycle
Thurs: Pack for Cape Cod, including sneakers
Fri: Drive to Cape, run 4 miles, make much merriment
Sat: Combat rehearsal dinner hangover with wedding day alcohol
Sun: Easy short run on the beach, sweat out alcohol

Do you have any tips for coming back from a stress fracture?  Fair warning: if they include kale, I hate you.

Sunday, May 19, 2013

Sunday Wrap Up: 58 Days

58 days ago, I went for a 21 mile run, and when I returned, my foot kind of hurt. In the ensuing 57 days, I have run a total of two times (three, if you count the solitary mile I 'fessed up to last week). Two runs, in two months.

By some miracle (read: SoulCycle), I have managed to not double in girth in that time. However, there is absolutely no telling how my running speed, or endurance, has suffered in the last two months, (not to mention the ten months before that when I avoided the track like it was a vector for STDs...).

Suffice it to say, my triumphant return to running on Wednesday will be interesting, and walking running the fine line between training and stress fracture: part two will be a challenge. But after two months of mandated leave, here's hoping I am equal to the task.

Just this once, a stress fracture weekly wrap up:

Number of Miles Walked This Week: 17. I don't count my daily commute to work and back each day, just the miles that are intentional "exercise." Non-sweaty, stoplight-riddled "exercise..."

Number of Spin Classes Attended This Week: 3. I max out at three, as developing a case of crotch rot would sort of undermine the whole "not doubling in girth while injured" thing I've worked to achieve.

Total Workout Time This Week: 5 hours 38 minutes.

Number of Beers Consumed This Week: y=mx+b. Some things never change. Those things inckude my mastery of math, and my proclivity for fine intoxicants.

Types of Beers Consumed This Week: Maine Beer Company's Mo, Zoe, and Peeper Ale; Harpoon IPA, Guinness, Westbrook's Shane's Big DIPA.

Cross your fingers for me on Wednesday. But not your toes - can't risk 'em again.

Monday, May 13, 2013

The Break Up

This is a love story about a girl and a boot.  It does not have a happy ending.

Well I guess it does, if you're cheering for the girl.  If you're cheering for the love part, no such luck.

I spent three weeks diligently wearing my boot all over town (this town, and also various towns in suburban New York and Connecticut and New Jersey.  That boot got a lot of mileage, pun absolutely intended).  The boot was heavy and cumbersome and made my outfits look stupid (Brennan, sorry I ruined all the pictures from your bridal shower...).  I hated that boot very much, but I persevered because my past relationships taught me that people can change.

Just kidding!  My past relationships taught me to be selfish as fuck if you want something, and so I selfishly ruined people's photographs and stomped on their feet in the bars because the something I wanted was to get better.

Last Wednesday, I returned to Dr. Metzl discouraged.  I had done everything* he'd instructed and my foot felt exactly as it had three weeks prior when I was condemned to the boot.  Which is to say, not painful, but not right either. I was convinced I had made zero progress and would possibly be forced to live out my life in the boot forever, ruining a whole slew of wedding photos this summer and every summer to come.

(*I cheated once, the day before I went to the doctor.  In the midst of my morning constitutional, I decided "I'm going to the doctor tomorrow anyway, I might as well see what happens if I try to run."  I ran 1 mile.  Nothing happened.)

Miraculously, though, Dr. Metzl squeezed and poked and declared "yeah, you're done with the boot." WHAAAA?!  Done with the boot?  How can this be?  This feels the same!  OMG was it never broken AT ALL?!

Evidently, Dr. Metzl could feel a callus developing on the bone, which is what happens when a stress fracture heals itself.  He drew me a little diagram, which I forgot to photograph, so here is approximately what it looked like:
Metzl may have used more precise terminology when he described it to me.  He also took a look at my x-rays, which looked great, if I do say so myself.

So despite the fact that my foot wasn't feeling any better, I officially dumped the boot on Wednesday (I didn't even phase it out, because I have learned from past relationships that when you attempt that, they just. Keep.  Calling.).  And just to be sure I don't go back to it, I donated it to broken footed kids in Africa.  Not even kidding.  I'm not sure how many broken footed African children have size 10 feet, but I hope it helps someone.  Now if only there were a way to send used boyfriends to faraway continents...

In terms of where we go from here, regrettably I don't get to just go back to running right away, like a Forrest Gump breaking out of his braces.


In fact, I'm condemned to two more weeks sans running (technically Dr. Metzl said "two to three" which I obviously interpreted as "two").  And tempting as it was to buck Dr. Metzl's advice and start running right away, after spending Wednesday night in high heels, I was essentially paralyzed Thursday and Friday, so it seems my foot really was/continues to be broken.  Touché.  But there is light at the end of the tunnel, and I'm looking forward to a reason to write weekly wrap ups again soon.

In the meantime, I'll keep sweating it out at Soul Cycle and strolling along every block between 96th and 14th Streets.  And thinking about this:





Friday, May 3, 2013

F*%k That Friday: The Boot

Spring has FINALLY sprung in New York, and I'm furious.  While you people are all "whee yay outdoor fun things!" I'm dragging a ski boot behind me.  

I look happy about having the boot here, but I'm not.  I'm just under the influence.

Now granted, as injuries go, this one is by no means debilitating.  I'm even allowed to take off the boot and exercise!  But that doesn't mean that aren't a great many things that suck about the boot.  And in honor of F*%k That Friday, I will enumerate them here:

1. Exercise.  Yes, fine, I can take the boot off and put spin shoes on and go to SoulCycle to get my sweat fix.  And yes, my father did feel badly enough for my sidelined ass that he gifted me with my very own spin shoes, so that while I ride out (literally...) this injury, I'm not doing it in shoes someone else has sweat in.  But as mentioned above, it's finally nice out.  I would much rather be outdoors than locked inside a dark spin studio.  Which brings us to the other "fitness" option I've explored...

2. Walking.  This is not exercise.  It's not at all like running very slowly. It's totally different.  And far less awesome.  First of all, I don't sweat doing it.  Second of all, I have to keep my head down while I'm doing it because I'm too embarrassed to make eye contact with the runners in the Park.  I'm one of you, you know!  Stop judging me!

3. Other walking.  So beyond walking for "fitness," I do it to, like, get to work and back everyday.  For these excursions, I wear the boot and not my sneakers, because that's the point of the boot, right?  In 2-plus weeks of doing this, I have really developed my right ass cheek.  Furthermore, all my left shoes are getting worn down.

4. Navigating bars.  You would think I would have found a solution to this problem on day 2, but sadly, this bulky boot makes it very challenging to get myself around inside a crowded bar.  And because my foot is far away from my tits face where people are looking, no one I talk to while I'm out on the town even notices my injury and offers to go to the bar and procure a drink for me.  Shit's rude.

5. My actual recovery.  My foot feels the same as it did the day I went into this thing.  

In summation, a surgical boot?  F*%k That!


Tuesday, April 30, 2013

Race Report: Connemara Ultramarathon

What feels like a lifetime ago, but was actually three weeks and one broken foot ago, I ran my longest ultramarathon to date: 39.3 miles in Connemara, Ireland (I finished in 6:46, if you're just skimming for the results).  I traveled there with 7 other runners, and we stayed together in a house in Galway.  Find out what happens when runners stop being polite and start being real...



Just kidding, everyone was polite, and also that wasn't where we stayed; that's just some random spectacularly beautiful castle in Connemara.  You know what else they have in Connemara, besides castles? Spectacularly beautiful scenery:




And also?  Spectacularly large quantities of sheep:



Photo credit: Abbe Lew

Lots and lots (and lots) of sheep.  So many sheep.  And mountains.  Sheep and mountains and lakes and not a lot of coverage from the wind...  But I'm getting ahead of myself.  This was a long race, so I'm going to try to keep this report as brief as possible.  Ready?  (I wasn't, and I wound up with a broken foot, so I definitely advise you prepare yourself.)  Let's do this.


Pre-race:  After getting drunk in the airport yet failing to time my intoxication to coincide with a night of sleep on a trans-Atlantic flight (true story: passed out on the runway at JFK.  Woke up 20 minutes later and spent the duration of the flight awake, watching Zero Dark Thirty, which is a great film but maybe not one to watch on an airplane...), we arrived in Dublin on Friday morning to a legit hail storm, the likes of which I had never seen and wished never to see again, least of all not on Sunday when I would be attempting to run 39.3 miles.  Thankfully, as we drove out of Dublin in our siiiiiick 10 passenger non-predatory van, the skies seems to brighten.  

Non-predatory van.  Also, I'm not actually driving, both because I was probably drunk, and because the steering wheel is on the right.  Photo credit: Elyssa

Or so I'm told; I slept the whole way.  In any case, we disembarked from our van for a full Irish breakfast at Maura's sister's home.  I ate 14 different kinds of sausage and was happy.  Then I went back to sleep.


Lo and behold, when I woke up, we were on the other side of the country!  Seriously.  Here is a map:




Though this was my fourth trip to Ireland, the was my first time on the West Coast, and it was pretty awesome.  Galway itself is right on the water (I can read a map too!), and a paved pathway runs right along the shore.  (Fun fact: according to a plaque, this is Ireland's longest seaside promenade walk, which sounds a bit like my saying I'm the tallest Claire from my hometown who likes running... No offense, Galway).  




After we got situated at our house for the weekend (thanks to Maura again for using all her personal and familial connections to find us a place to stay and many places to drink beers) and popped in to say hello to Maura's mom and brother, we got lunch.  And beer.


I should mention that I ate nothing but clotted cream, sausages, and fish and chips for the entire lead up to this race.  I also finished a 39.3 mile race, so do with that information what you will...


We spent much of our first day sorta tired and sorta drunk, so anything else that happened that day either escapes my memory or wasn't that important.  Moving right along...


We woke up on Saturday and headed to the promenade for a shake out run.  Already grappling with a stress fracture, this was to be my first run of any distance in about 10 days.  I don't know if it was the healing power of the motherland (and her food...) or the thrill of being on vacation in a new place, or just the joy of running with friends again, but my foot felt pretty okay.  Not awesome, certainly, but it held up over 4-ish miles.  At least I would make it to the starting line.





We showered up and then headed out to Connemara to see the area at a time when we weren't grumpy, hungry, and tired (though after several hours of driving, we were all of those things even a day before the race).  The scenery truly was remarkable, and unlike anyplace else I've been.


I don't go to a lot of places where cows block the roadways. Photo credit: Elyssa
After our trip to the Kylemore Abbey, which was fiiiine, I guess, if you're into beautiful Gothic architecture and the prospect of a man building a castle for you, we headed back to Galway to pick up our bibs at the race expo.  It was somewhat more difficult for me to find my bib number than it was for others, as I was one of 46 Walshes.


My people.  Photo credit: Bojana
Bibs were collected, groceries were procured, beers were consumed, a feast was prepared, and as always, a bib person was laid out.



After probably a few more beers than were necessary, I tucked myself into bed and tossed and turned until my 5:15am wake up.

Race morning: Because I was the only idiot who was running the Ultra, I was the only one who had to wake up so early.  The course was a loop, you see.  The 39.3 mile runners ran for 13.1 miles, to arrive at the marathon start.  The marathoners ran 13.1 miles to arrive at the half start. The halfers ran for 13.1 miles and arrived at the collective finish, which also happened to be the 39.3 mile start.  Which means that while I was already running, the buses taking the marathoners to their start passed me by. 



It would appear that the bus is VERY close to me. Thanks for that, guys... 
Photo credit: Abbe, from inside the bus
Anyway, I had some coffee and toast and fretted a bit about not going to the bathroom before I left, then got bused out to the start/finish, which meant I had the incredible opportunity to get ready indoors at the finish line hotel.  I will admit that my nerves on race morning were on high-alert; between the broken foot and having never run 39.3 miles before, I was pretty anxious about the prospect of DNFing in the rural Irish countryside, and mentally rewatched that episode of that Bear Grylls show where he has to sleep inside a dead camel so he doesn't die of exposure overnight.  "Can a  girl fit inside a sheep carcass?" I wondered...

The pre-race meeting (Ultras make you attend pre-race meetings so that they aren't liable if you die from running so much.  I'm only half kidding...) also made mention of a bag drop, so I jumped at the opportunity to leave a bag of gear at the 26.2 mile mark.  Into it went:


- Cheddar goldfish, mostly crumbs, from having traveled from New York in a ziploc bag

- Swedish fish
- Immodium
- Dry shirt
- Dry socks

On my person, I carried 1 handheld, filled with water, which I intended to refill along the way, and 4 Gus of all the flavors I dig.  I finally hit the bathrooms just before it was time to make our way to the start.  


When we got outside, I was unpleasantly surprised at how hard the wind was blowing, and was somewhat nervous that my attire of tank top, long sleeved tee, race jacket, gloves, and capris was not going to be enough.  After standing around shivering and making small talk long enough for my hands and feet to go numb, we were off.


The race (finally... I'm getting tired of writing...): 
The starting line was about a mile uphill from the finish hotel, so it was nice to know that at least our final mile would be downhill, if nothing else was.  And mostly, nothing else was.  With no real finish time expectation (and no actual expectation of finishing at all, on account of the foot), I decided to mentally break the race down into 5 mile chunks.  Three 13.1 mile chunks sounded horrible to me, but 5 miles at a time, in 8 pieces, seemed reasonable.  I wasn't wearing a Garmin and had only my digital watch, but tried to remember to hit the lap button each mile to get a sense of effort.

About 2 miles in, I had already warmed up enough to take off my jacket.  I tied it around my waist for awhile, thinking I might want later, but ultimately that got to be a hassle and I ditched it in the brush alongside the road.  


THIS IS CALLED FORESHADOWING.


About 4 miles in, a girl ahead of me stopped to pick up something she'd dropped and ended up running right behind me.  She spied my Surf City Marathon shirt and asked if I was from the states.  Kristen was also a Yankee, and California dweller herself, and a friend of one of my travel companions, Lisa!  Her husband was running the Ultra as well, though well in front of us at this point.  She was also managing an injury - plantar fasciitis - so we fell in step together.


The first 13.1 miles were by and large downright pleasant.  The hills were rolling, the breeze wasn't too tough, and the scenery was breath-taking.  I was having some mild stomach issues, but mostly they could be avoided if I didn't eat any Gu.  I figured things would sort themselves out and wasn't too concerned.  Kristen and I had plenty to talk about, and were pleasantly surprised when we arrived at the full marathon start.  I was smiley, even!



This is stolen.
We also picked up a few Irishmen at this point, and our little group grew to about five or six.  We were chugging along, having hit the 13.1 mile mark in 1:56, but my stomach had been churning for awhile.  Every time I tried to take a Gu, the churning became potentially pants-shitting.  Unfortunately, the "aid stations" on the course had only water, and the only calories I had on me were the Gus, so I decided I'd have to keep going to 26.2 and my salty snacks and Imodium without any fuel.  Not ideal, but certainly doable.  Hell at this rate, maybe we could break 6 hours!  

THIS IS ALSO FORESHADOWING.


I don't know where, exactly, but what felt like shortly after the marathon start, the wind picked up.  And so did the terrain. Kristen and I went from chatting about running to telling each other stories to take our minds off the fierce winds and climbs (admittedly, she did most of the talking, for which I am deeply grateful, Kristen!).  We had to use our hands to hold our hats on, and were nearly blown off course more than once. We'd done more than 3 of those eight 5 mile chunks.  Sadly, completing 3 of anything doesn't feel like all that much, and as we continued plugging away into the wind, my morale was dropping decidedly.


The Ultra profile isn't even offered online, so where this says mile 0.00 was my mile 13.1.

Looking back at the elevation profile, miles 16 to 22 (4 to 9 on the elevation profile above) were indeed uphill, and by the time we hit mile 20, normally a moment of "fuck yeah, almost done with this bitch!" in the marathon, I was feeling pretty low.  The climb into the wind had taken a lot out of me, and I'd been running for close to 3 and a half hours without consuming any calories.  Kristen's plantar pain was also beginning to ache.  She had a drop bag at mile 22, so that became our new goal: get to 22.


(I don't know why we runners set these goals.  Get to 22 and then what?  And then keep running for 17.3 more miles, actually.  But if you're a runner, you know how these mental games work.)  

In any case, 22 was miraculously the top of the hill, and not only did we find Kristen's drop bag there, but we found her husband as well.  He'd been suffering from food poisoning and decided to ease off the pace and run with his wife.  Lucky for him, she'd made a friend who had Imodium 4 miles ahead (me!).  New goal: get to the 26.2 mile mark.


While the next 4 miles were downhill, they were brutally windy.  We all ran single file, trying to stay tucked in behind anyone ahead who might offer a draft.  At this point, we weren't even speaking, both because the wind was so loud, and because we were feeling pretty defeated.  I hear the scenery continued to be beautiful, but we didn't do anything except look at the ground in front of us, since looking up with cause our hats to be ripped off our heads.  We later discovered gusts were up to 40mph that day, which isn't awesome...


At some point, I think when we got to Kristen's bag, I hit "stop" instead of "lap" on my watch, so at this point I had no idea what our actual time or splits were, but I guessed we hit the marathon split at about 3:50.  If I'd had the faculty to do any math, I would have realized that was nearly impossible, since there was no way our second 13.1 miles were faster than our first.  In any event, official results indicate we hit the marathon split at 3:59, with a 2:03 second 13.1.

When I got to the bag drop table at 26.2, I tore into my stuff.  I tossed the shirt and socks and went straight for Imodium and Goldfish.  I also stuffed the baggie of Swedish Fish into my SpiBelt, though I was skeptical they'd help, since they are basically Gu in solid form.  I shared Imodium with Kristen's husband Chris, and we turned a corner to conquer the final 13.1.

I'm going to redirect your attention to the elevation profile up there.  See where mile 13 is?  That was mile 26.1 for me.  See what comes immediately after that?  Truly, I don't think I've ever been so demoralized in a race in my entire life: I have just spent 10-ish miles running uphill into a fierce headwind, I haven't been able to eat anything in 4 hours, I have a broken foot, I have 13.1 miles left to run, and I was facing a mountain.  Really, the only thing I had going for me was those cheddar Goldfish, which I could actually keep down, and which - no exaggeration - possibly saved my life and definitely helped my mental game.  Thank you, Pepperidge Farm.  I tried to channel my inner ultramarathoner, 26.2 miles too late, and decided to walk the hills.  I bid Kristen and Chris adieu and began hiking.

For awhile, actually, this strategy was indeed effective: I hiked everything super steep and ran everything runnable.   The Irishmen Kristen and I had met earlier were still around and using the same strategy, so we took turns leading and checking on one another.  Truthfully, the fun part of the runner camaraderie had given way to some straight up survival stuff: buddy, you hydrating?  Need some Swedish Fish?  Are you warm enough? 

Warmth was definitely starting to be a challenge.  The wind continued blowing furiously, and now that I was moving so slowly, it was hard to stay warm. I had been aiming to keep my pace around 10:30, but when I crossed the 32 mile mark, the pain in my foot went pretty suddenly from dull and tolerable to sharp.  I pulled over to check it out and untied my right shoe entirely to allow for swelling.  I tried running a few more steps, but each resulted in a sharp pain.  With 7 miles to go, I was pretty much unable to run.

I plodded forward, eating Goldfish and thinking about my options.  Really, there was one: finish the damn thing.  There were no spectators, no medical tents, hardly any other runners around.  If I quit, I'd have no way to get to the finish line.  So I kept on hiking.

My pace was now down to about 12:30/mile.  Normally, 7 miles should take less than an hour, even late in a race.  I realized I was looking at almost 90 more minutes of hiking in the freezing wind and had long since ditched my outer layer.  I kind of freaked out: I could actually wind up with hypothermia. 

Plus, I was feeling shitty about myself.  I don't ever walk in races, and here I was, walking the last 7 whole miles of this one.  Yes, I was making the right choice for me, given my foot, but my foot was injured in the first place because I had half assed my training.  I had no one to blame but myself.  You can get to some pretty dark places when it's just you and sheep and 7 miles of climbing...

At mile 35, I arrived at the base of the infamous Hell of the West, the steepest stretch of the course and nearly two miles straight uphill.  The runners (hell, they were all walkers at this point) near the top were barely visible.  But I knew this was the last push before the finish, and if I'd made it this far, no freakin' way was I going to give up and die of exposure.  I chanted "hike the hills" to myself (even though I'd also been hiking the flats and the downhills for the last 3 miles), and powered my way to the top.  It took close to 30 minutes to go 2 miles.

From the top of the Hell of the West, the course is downhill to the finish, and the wind was starting to die down (37 miles too late...).  I tried running immediately, but unfortunately my foot hadn't magically healed in 5 miles of walking (weird, right?).  I walked another mile.  Finally, I decided that I wanted the race to be over, damnit, and if any of my friends happened to be hanging around the finish area, they were absolutely not going to see me walk there.  I ran the world's slowest mile and crossed the finish line of my first 39.3 mile race in 6:46.  The last 13.1 miles took me 2 hours and 45 minutes.  

This is also stolen. And that half-grin is definitely fake.

I stumbled into the designated Ultra finisher area where the race director came over to check me out.  I fumbled around in a daze for a few minutes, accepting a couple cups of Coke and my checked gear, then made my way into the hotel.  I quickly found the pub, and in it, my friends.  Baker saw me first, raised his glass, and exclaimed "Walsh!"  I burst into tears.

All my friends came around to hug me, the whole pub started clapping, and strangers came up to congratulate me.  

Thanks for the Guinness, Baker.  Photo credit: Elyssa
I don't know why I was so emotional, to be honest.  I was tired, for starters.  I had been running for 6 hours and 46 minutes.  But I was also pretty emotionally drained, not just from the mental challenges of racing in tough conditions, but from the lead-up, will-she-or-won't-she drama with my foot.  I've done enough marathons at this point that I don't really struggle with the mental games, but I definitely did at Connemara, and that took a lot out of me.  I was at once both proud and surprised that I finished at all, and disappointed that I didn't train better or race smarter.  It's a weird sensation to experience accomplishment and regret simultaneously.

But it was nothing a couple pints couldn't fix.

In conclusion: I have a lot of thoughts, and future plans, related to the Ultra.  I think part of what appeals to me is that I still have so much to learn, and so many ways to improve.  I still want a sub 3:20 marathon, but I also really want to get better at Ultras as well.  "Better" is subjective in Ultras, of course, but I'm definitely not done exploring what "better" is.

For the time being, I have another week in the boot.  I didn't cause any grievous injury to myself in Ireland, and knew going into it I'd likely wind up with a boot upon my return, so in that sense, I have no regrets about running in Ireland.  As I mentioned before I left, I don't think it's been a terrible thing to be banned from running for a few weeks, as someone who's obviously struggled with motivation for the last few months.  Part of me is hesitant to make big plans for the fall race season, since I don't know how much my fitness will be impacted and how susceptible I will be to another injury.  But part of me - the post-race part - wants to make huge plans: a sub 3:20 marathon AND a 50 miler!  And drinking all the beers!  I'll be sure to keep you posted as it plays out.

As for Connemara in particular, it was disproportionately more difficult than any other race I've run.  That is to say, it wasn't just more challenging because it was longer, it was more challenging because it was longer, and steeper, and windier, and I struggled with my foot, and with fuel, and with my mental game.  None of those things make for a "good" experience, but I can say without hesitation that I'm so glad I ran the Connemara Ultra.  Runners are weird people like that.

Wednesday, April 24, 2013

#BostonStrong

As I trust you gathered from Monday's post about the #BostonStrongNYC run, I did no actual running during the observance, on account of having been sentenced to three weeks in a boot.  It is both functional as well as fashionable, and I am delighted to wear it to work everyday... 


Blogger code dictates one must take work bathroom selfies totes omg143!!!1!

Despite my footwear, I did actually hobble around the Lower Loop of Central Park on Monday while hundreds of others ran around me. 



Thanks for the pic, Baker. If you look closely, you can see the boot and my short shorts

 A lot has been said about the "running community" since the bombs went off last week, some of it feel-good (if cheesy), but some of it critical. To be clear: Last Monday wasn't about running. It was about terrorism and extremism and I'm fairly certain distance running itself isn't an affront to the terrorist dogma.  


But for those running and supporting the Boston Marathon, last Monday should have been about running.  Because what normally happens on Patriots' Day in Boston is that 25,000 people run a marathon and thousands more watch and clap and don't have to worry about being killed or maimed by fucking idiots. 


What's an affront to the terrorist dogma is the normalcy of going about our everyday lives without fear.  And so this past Monday, the running community worldwide got back to our normal routines, and while we did, thought about those in Boston who don't have that luxury.




Mike reached out to me from Seattle over the weekend and offered to share his story of the running community's response from the left coast. Take it away, Mike:



On Monday evening, more than 300 runners finished their stretches and ambled off on a leisurely run through the Capitol Hill neighborhood of Seattle. Some were dressed in running gear, some dressed in ratty, old clothes dug out specifically for this occasion. One man wore a balloon hat. Another wore all white, another all black. One woman carried a giant American flag. There were giant groups, trios and duos, and some running individually. All shared smiles, all squinted in the springtime evening sun, and at 6pm, all surged down the street.

One week earlier, over 23,000 runners began the 2013 Boston Marathon. Most were dressed in running apparel – short shorts, hats, sunglasses, lotion, water bottles strapped to their waists. Some were there for the first time, others were veterans. Some were there to break records, others just to cross the finish line (a massive feat in and of itself). But around the 4:00:00 mark, two explosions just yards from the finish line kept more than 5,000 from finishing the race, injured over 180, and killed 3.

Back in Seattle, just minutes before 6pm, a man wandered up to the group. He had tears in his eyes. “Remember Boston, people,” he said. “Remember Boston. That’s my hometown. Thank you all for this. Thank you all.” He held his arms in the air, as if to embrace the entire crowd.

There were accounts from different news sources at the scene about runners crossing the finish line in Boston, hearing and seeing the explosions, and immediately running another two miles to the nearest hospital to donate blood. Other stories told of runners sprinting back into the carnage to lift fences and rubble and bodies to safety. People ran to safety, people ran to their loved ones, first responders ran to assist. And on Monday, people all around the country ran to pay their respects, not just to those who lost their lives, but to those who were injured, and to those who risked their lives to help. Not just to an entire city which locked itself indoors for a week, but to those that stayed outside for a week, searching for someone responsible. And not just to those submitted by the force of the explosions just yards from the finish line, but to those who were stopped short, and to those who finished. Running, it seems, is a universal sign of joy, of love, of fear, of pain, and of heroism.

One news reporter asked, “What, as a runner, made you want to take part in something like this?” The runner responded, “The horrific things that happened in Boston weren’t just an injury to Boston, but to the running community around the world. This is a way to show the people of Boston and the people who lost their lives that they’re part of a very, very big family, and we and everyone else doing this in the world are going to support them in whatever way we can. Today just happens to be running.”

So off the group went, at 6pm on Monday evening. As I hung around the middle of the pack, I took a second to turn around and see how many people followed; I saw a massive field of blue and yellow and white and black and red flooding the streets and sidewalks, engulfing parked cars and pedestrians heading the opposite direction. Hundreds of heads bobbing up and down, hundreds more feet striking the asphalt without meter; still ahead of me were hundreds more.


We ran like a force, weighty and speedy, zipping down the streets of Seattle. And we weren’t running simply for the love of running, but rather to stretch the arms of our community out to Boston from 3,000 miles away and embrace her; to take our turn amidst the long line of cities around the world waiting to do the same. After all, running is what we do – we’re humans with lungs and hearts and bones and brains and feelings. So we ran, because that’s how we speak. And we spoke simply to remind the people of Boston and those affected by the explosions that their family is here to support them in whatever way we could. That day just happened to be running.

To Boston, with love,

The Seattle Running Community